Mommie Dearest......

Anyone who knows me knows that I will willingly say that I was the product of two people who should have never been allowed to reproduce. Yes, that means I wouldn't be here, but you know what - the truth is the truth!

Now, my dad will openly admit he made mistakes. He will admit that he was no where near being the perfect father or parent for that matter. But, my mother. Wow..... To hear her talk, she was the almighty perfect mother and I was just the lousy kid she got stuck with. But, in reality that was the furthest from the truth.

Now, before I go on, let me clear the air a bit. Yes, I had the necessities growing up. No, I was not beaten or sexually abused. Please note, that I have not denied being mentally/emotionally abused. We all have our skeletons, some are just much worse than others.

Now, here is a picture of my mom on Christmas 2009.

This is her, her current boyfriend and his granddaughter.

Yes, this picture upsets me. I lived in my home state all my life, up until January 2009. I had 6 children of my own at that point. Do you know how many pictures I have of my mother and any of my children together? One. Yes, one. And in all honesty, I really don't know where its located. It was of her holding my oldest daughter at my wedding. And that's it. The only photo I have of her with one of my children -- her grandchildren. And believe me, she wasn't smiling in that one. It just irks my nerves that she puts her man's grand kid above her own grandchildren. And on top of that, this little girl is a few weeks younger than my 2005 twins. And, I always have to hear about how she is such a genius and was talking before them and what she knows that mine doesn't. Who cares? My children are smart. Sorry if they don't develop on the same level as someone else's kid. Oh, I could go on and on and on about this; but I won't.

And you want to know the worst part if it all? She doesn't even call my kids her grand kids. She calls them "My daughter's kids. I'm not grandma!" She has them call her Ms. Tricia or Mama's Mama. What is that crap? When the twins were born in 2007, I had their birth announcement put in the local paper. She came and cussed me out for putting them as her grand kids. Ummm...... well THEY ARE! Besides we lived in a small town. Everyone knew before I left the hospital that she had 2 more grand kids! I mean sheesh!